Tears

it is raining where i live today. and rain always depresses me. I just want to be alone, want to let the tears run down my face, let all of the emotion out. but i cant right now.

i have a bone to pick. i dont see why anyone has issues with gay/lesbians. i am not one myself, but what's wront with them just loving who they love? what is the big issue!?! i have many gay/lesbian friends, and they are some of the kindest, most understanding people anywhere. so dont be biased, there is nothing wrong with a guy loving a guy, just as there is no issue with a guy loving a girl. in the end, it all ends up the same way - love.

Just think over it.

Melissa

Dedication

This is a song dedicated to Nick. Not Margar's bf Nick, but another Nick that I know. Plus it is an awsome song!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m59_17sCBfI

DeviantART

Although I will post on blogger still from time to time, I will be posting on a website called DeviantART more often. here is the link to my userlookup:

http://blackashsunset.deviantart.com/

Depression

I dont know what it is, but lately I have been depressed. And that is not me. not usually. the only time i feel normal is when i am with my friends....

Cyclists

Hi everyone:

I just wanted to ask a favor of everyone. Please, let the adults in your life know about sharing the rode with cyclists. Due to florida law, a car must remain 3 ft away from a cyclist at all times. Please, respect us cyclists - we are moving vehicles, and we are alive, and can get hurt. I almost got hit by a semi on 301 a few weeks ago. In all likelyhood, if I had gotten hit, I would not have survived. So, please do me that favor.

Below is the link that lists all of the major laws pertaining to cyclists. Remember, a cyclist abides by all of the rules your car does, so we have every right to be on the rode!

http://www.floridabicycle.org/rules/bikelaw.html

one last bit of info - if a cyclist is hit by a vehicle and killed, it is not considered manslaughter like a vihicle hitting a pedestrian (from what I last heard).

Shattering

Glass in my heart
Burrowed so deep
It's like this disire
That penatrates me
I burn so hot
I'm frozen in ice
In my heart
I know it's time

There's a man
Under the sycamore
His face is cold and tired
He would lay down his life
For a moment of love
But no one does he find

I reach out to touch him
But in the moment he's gone
He laid his life down for another
But the other did not love
With a spar of ice he wrought
Into the sycamore's trunk
"Do not cry for me my love
Because you love me not."

Guess Who?

L-O-L

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OgdL4ysfD1o&feature=PlayList&p=f4sfIAyOgwc

ROFL!!

this version is soooo funny! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zr6uvBICic0

Sympathy For the Devil - And a partially-stripping piece of mick jagger mancandy!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zuTiTfbfy7Q&feature=related

For One Who's Name I will Not mention

Listen
I will lay it out plain
I love you
Like I never will again
It's clear you feel
The same about me
So listen to
My silent plea
I know you're
Afraid to ask
But take the risk
It's always a chance
Little do you know
I will say yes

Love Disappears

Love disappears,
And burns one's heart
To ashes
It confuses
It maddens
Love is what keeps you going
Love is what gets you down
Love is what feels the best
Love is what hurts the most

Although Love disappears,
Out of the ashes a new one rises,
So now out of the burnt shell of my heart
A tear of blood wells
But there is a reason to live
Now that a new love
Is reborn.

Star Trek

For anyone who hasnt seen the new star trek, you need to see it. even my friends who call me a geek for watching star trek loved the movie. (plus the guy who plays kirk is soooo hot for those of you who are reading this blog that are either female or gay...MMMM!) it was amazing...

Def Leppard - Foolin

Okay, you HAVE to watch this... I <3 Def Leppard, and this is one of my fav songs by them...the vidio is amazing too....just click on the link or paste it into your browser...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jACrmwTsi08

Love

Am I destined to be loved?
Or will I fade,
Never known,
Never kissed,
Into the soft oblivion of old age?
Or will I find someone
Someone who loves me for who I am.

Are my standerds too high,
Or is there truely
No one in this world
Who would hold me
And love me?

Warp Drive

Read this, it is awsome...:

http://news.yahoo.com/s/space/20090506/sc_space/startrekswarpdrivenotimpossible

BURN all you non-trekkies..warp is possible!

Freebird

I want to fly away
To a place where I am alone
I want to fly away
I want to be a Freebird

I can talk but
Does anyone truly lison
I want to be alone for awhile
I want to be a Freebird

I can't stop the voices
But maybe I can change them
I want to change them
I want to be a Freebird

Summer

God, I am SO glad summer is almost here.... XD and aerosmith!! I hope i will get to go and see them....

Chains and Blackness (and all in between)

Chains and blackness surround me
Rushing over the grey ground
Chains and blackness
I no longer see
Chains and Blackness and everything in between

Love is lost
And love is taken
I do love
Don't be mistaken
I no longer dream
Chains and blackness and everything in between

Chains and blackness surround me
Rushing over the grey ground
Chains and blackness
I no longer see
Chains and Blackness and everything in between

I NEED INSPIRATION

i need inspiration for a song...any ideas?

Black Velvet

She sits in a corner of the wold
Her existance unknown
Or no one cares
She sits and cries
Just a person.
Covered by black velvet,
Her only possesion is her soul.
She is in grief and sorrow
And pain and hunger.
She is black velvet
Black velbet.

Bad To The Bone!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UYPcY15JaWY

Srry

Hey srry I havn't posted in a long time...i just have been very buisy.

But, to make up for it, I have found a amazing picture!...okay TWO amazing pictures!
The first one is a Def Lerrard wallpaper (they PAWN!) one is Ewen McGregor (u know, obi one kanobi in Star Wars?).

Hey!

Hey, come and take the quiz I just made! Make sure to rate it!

http://www.quizilla.com/quizzes/9020066/what-slow-dance-song-fits-you

Mick n' Ronnie

Ronnie: yup they suck

Mick: i told u so!

ROFL!

rofl watch this dont ask me why just do it!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PVA047JAQsk

srry i cant imbed it....it wont let me :(

Greetings from Mick Jagger

No, Mick, I don't care for the Jonas Brothers either!

SCREAM! (poem)

SCREAM! about life
SCREAM! about death
SCREAM! about your ex-boyfriend
SCREAM! about your exams
SCREAM! about your anger
SCREAM! about bombs
SCREAM! about your fear
SCREAM! at concerts
SCREAM!

Coldpay!

Hey...i was surfin da web this mornin, and i found this coldplay wallpaper....

This is awsome...make sure to check it out

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3SNYtd0Ayt0

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v-VKEVHL-8Y&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-HVw9kWkPX0&feature=related

Inspired

Idk how to describe it...but i feel so inspired it hurts... i was having writers block there for a while, but now i dont wanna put down my pen...it's kinda funny

James Jagger and Alexandra Richards

This is a pic of James Jagger with Alexandra Richards (keith richards' Daughter).

James Jagger

I would like to introduce someone to you...James Jagger, Mick's son...

Dreams (poem)

We stare at the sky,
Dreaming,
Thinking of things to come,
As the world collapses in ruins all around us.
We think we can fly,
But then we come crashing back to ground,
Broken and sad.
Maybe some day,
I don't know when,
Our dreams,
Our Hopes,
Will come to fruition.
So, big world,
Keep on dreaming,
Dreaming of things to come.

Hey, look, its bruce!

Pressure (poem)

Pressures pushinig down on me
Soon I will explode
No one understands
My mind
Pressures pushing down on me
Soon I will explode
Rebelion is my religion
Music is my temple
Pressures pushing down on me
Soon I will explode
No Rhythem and Rime to it
Always pressure

OMG LOOK OVER HERE!

It's john bon jovi!

I've got meh some bond!

Look it's Daniel Craig (aka, James Bond)

Scuba Animals

The Page (poem)

Squiggles on the page I draw,
Each turn reprisenting a change,
My pen wanders like a dream,
They must not end.

But as my pen moves, I think of you,
And I pause.
Now everything melts into grey,
And my tears smudge the ink,
As I think of you

Teddy Bear John!

Who is the real teddy bear - John or the Panda? Discuss.




Speaking of Teddy Bears...Take a look at paulie!! How riskay of him! :)

Ringo

My, Ringo, What big eyes you have!

Vertigo-U2

HEY! Look it's BONO!! ;) how trippy of him!

In Dreams (poem)

In Dreams I will find you,
My one true love.
In dreams will I find you,
In the heavens above.
Love each other though we may, only in dream will I find you today.
In dreams I see you,
Holding me close,
Our bodies dripping with sweat.
In dreams I see you,
Crying over my unconsious body,
Thinking I was dead,
But I was not.
Only in dreams....

You Really Got Me -Van Halen

This is Van Halen's version of You Really Got Me...the lead singer is David Lee Roth (a.k.a. Diamond Dave)....Isn't He Da Bomb? Even if you think not, he certantly does!

Quotes on My Art Box

I keep this box with all my art supplies in it. Yesterday, Ii decieded I wanted to make it unique, so I chose out some quotes from some of my favoret people and put them on there....well, here are the Quotes.

"Art is anything you can get away with." -Andy Worhol (artist...his artwork is very nice)

"The logical process will often be the safe one. I tend, when given that choice, to go the way that's not safe." -Sting (musician)

"Being moved by an emotion isn't always extranious, sometimes its the whole point."
-Commander Chakotay (Star Trek Voyager, Episode: Alter Ego)

"Let's face it: I paint well. I know it, you know it. There's no arguing, really, is there?" -Ronnie Wood (Musician and Painter)

"Lose your dreams and you might lose your mind." -Mick Jagger (Musician)

"Ah, are we glad to see you! Could you point us in the direction of the wormhole?"
-Elim Garak to an enemy (Star Trek Deep Space Nine)

"Just enough light to begin." -Andrew J Robinson (Actor and Author), A Stich In Time

"My People taught me, a man does not own land. He doesn't own anything but the courage and loyalty in his heart." -Commander Chakotay (Star Trek Voyager, Episode: Initiantions)

"I can't get no satisfacion" The Rolling Stones (Band), I Can't Get No Satisfaction

"I was tought that the way of progress was neither swift nor easy." -Marie Curie (scientist)

"I hate long goodbyes. I don't even let people take me to the airport." -Robert Beltran (Actor)

"We all have our time machines. Some take us back, they're called memories. Some take us forward, they're called dreams." -Jeremy Irons (Actor)

"In the end, the love you take is equal to the love you make." -Paul McCartney (Musician)

"Both the man of science and the man of action live always at the edge of mystery, surrounded by it." -Robert J. Oppenheimer (Physist, also man who built first atomic bomb)

"We have focused only on the negitives, and not enough on incredible stories of the human spirit and of rebirth and rebuilding. That's equally important as the tragedy." -Steve Perry (Musician, Former Lead Singer for Journy)

Methinks I will now begin to post insiteful remarks by other people like these more often....

Stayin' Alive - the bee gees

Introducing: THE BEE GEES!!! Take a (short) look at the hairy disco kings....look up stayin' alive on youtube (my blog didnt like the movie!)

Livin on a Prayer-Bon Jovi

This has to be one of the best songs EVER....Bon Jovi is awsome....enjoy!



HOLY FRICK! You wouldn't believe what I found out! Paul McCartney did, infact have a son...I am ignoring the fact that he looks absolutely nothing like his father, but really, who cares? The important thing is Paul had a son! He also has, total, four daughters....If you want more info, just look up Linda McCartney (RIP, Linda!. His name is James McCartney. His most famous sibling is probly his sister, the English fasion designer Stella McCartney.

Jeremy Irons

Enter: Jeremy Irons

he played in Pink Panther 2....just thought i'd post a pic...well, here he is!

Pink Panther II

Yesterday, I got to see the Pink Panther II (ROFL it was hystarically AMAZING!) with some of my friends.....and guess who it had in it? one of my fav actors of all times, Jeromy Iorns, was in the movie...god that man has a gorgeous voice....anyway, he is like...amazing...

BRUCE!

Hey look everyone, it's Bruce!

Srry I havnt posted in a while...i have been rather buisy....more correctly VERY BUISY!

Happy V-day to everyone!

START ME UP!

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okay, so if u don't think mick is hot, think again....the guitarists are ronnie wood and keith richards and bill wyman, and the guy on the drummer is Charlie watts....

...one of my friends can do the same lip pooch thing as mick!....

....I want a white car with a large red stones tung on the hood, and Start Me Up written in red along the sides....that would be like tottally rad.....anyway...

Bruce Springsteen- Dancing in the Dark

Bruce Springsteen Dancing in the Dark...Bruce is the Hottest!

Keith Richards & Ron Wood STEREO MTV promo

ROFL!!!

Medieval Fair

Yesterday i went to the medieval fair....guess what i got?!? A leather bound jurnal! and i saw one of the most heart breaking guys ever....i worked with him during the Gainsville downtown festival, and he was working one of the shows at the medieval fair....he hung out with us for a while, and then we had to go...but he is gorgeous and i <3 him...

Am I Groovin' You?

Hugh Jackman has the bod....

Well, he does!

Frito Bandito

Okay okay....i couldnt help myself....for those who like Jose Halepino, they will know the Jose Halepino song....well....if you were wondering, was jeff dunham just makin the song up? well, yes and no....he, lets just say, altered a frito comercial...here is the original.

DANCING IN THE STREET!!!!!

Need I say more?

Karta Me - Mihalis Hatzgiannis

Here is a Vid of Mihalis Hatzgiannis - i <3 him- the name of this vidio is Karta Me. Mihalis is one of the most popular singers in Greece (he's greek, if you didnt figure that out). I hope someday he tours america!

Mihalis Hatzgiannis

This is my future greek boyfriend...ok not really but i wish...his name is Mihalis Hatzgiannia...He is soooo hot (and he is a really good singer!)!!!! I will post a vid of him singing later.

Flyboys

Heh...I have been watchin the flyboys go by in their Blue Angles and various other jets....we have been having an unusual amout of Army air activity as of late....it has been cool seeing them fly in formation!

Addicted to Love

This is a song by robert palmer, who also did Doctor, Doctor. I <3 him! But anyway, the dancing ladies in the movie are terribly cheesie, but *sigh* what is one to do about that? What matters is it is a great song!

ROFL!

For those who know who keith richards is, this picture is hilarious! For those who dont, shame on you, and make sure you google him.

Ronnie Wood

Ok, so you may be wondering, who is my fave music artist of all time? Well, I have waaaayyyy to many to mention in this single artical, but one of them is Ronnie Wood of the Rolling Stones, The Faces, The Birds, and the Jeff Beck Group. I love him! I have included a picture of him above.

Jessica Alba

This is a song by a relitively new band, Waiting for Betsy...it is about Jessica Alba, and it is an awsome song!

Iris

This is a picture I took of an iris at the botanical gardens in Canada last spring.

The Royal Botanical Gardens are near Hamilton, Ontario, where my grandmother lives, so we took a trip there while visiting her. The iris festival was going on, so we went to the iris garden and took pictures. The RBG gardens are famous all over the world.

Sweet Games

Here are some links for some pretty awsome miniclip games...make sure u check them out!

http://www.miniclip.com/games/motherload/en/

http://www.miniclip.com/games/mr-bounce/en/

http://www.miniclip.com/games/quick-fire-pool/en/

Paul Mccartney

This is to follow up my ever present past post/movie post.

For those who dont know who paul mccarnty is, he is a former member of the beatles who looked (in his younger days) like the pic i poster.

I think he is hot, some think not. Post your oppinion!

Poem 2-the disco

Flashing lights
Pulsating
Glowing.
Loud music
Hear it roar.
Smell the sweat
And the bodies.
Dance to the pulse of the drum.

Random Thought of the Day

I need a pool table OMG!

YESH

I finally have one of mah fav songs back on mah computer...and one person who likes ramen noodles (yesh u know who u r) is gonna kill meh for singing it again and again...REO speedwagon's I just died in your arms tonight! <3 awsome song make sure to check it out sometime!

Caffine...mmmm....

I never thought I would say this, but I do like mountain dew....but it is so, like, bad for you....all that caffine, not to mention the sugar content!

And don't even get me started on ramen noodles! They taste good, but the ingrediants are horrible....infact, one of my friends loves them, so I got her a whole case of ramen noodles for x-mas =) I bet she is reading this post right now... well, she knows who she is. =) enjoy the noodles!

Ever Present Past

Here is a music vid that might interest all of you Paul Mccartney fans out there.....

And while I wait for that to download, here is another one of my poems.

Your eyes are deeper than the deepest oceans, and when you look in my eyes you see straight to my soul. Every breath you take I breathe with you, and everything you see I see with you. I know you love me, and I love you, but love is blind, and even though we know that us two hopeless romantics can never be together, we refuse to see the obvious. So, we will keep dreaming and loving, until death doth do us part.

Chakotay

Ok, ok, so i know most of the people reading this blog are not si-fi nerds, but i cant help but post this pic of a Star Trek character named Chapoltay....he is one of mah favs :)

He is the Star Ship Voyager's

First Officer, and he is,

like, awsome!

Random Fact of the Day

Apophyllite is a hydrous calcium potassium flourisilicate mineral. Some of the most beautiful specimines ever found have been found in India.

Star Trek

:) for most of the people who know me in real life, they know I am a star trek nut (and for those who didnt know that, now you do!). I mean a real, true nut. I read the books, watch the episodes, and i am SO gonna see the movie when it comes out! So, a few days ago i conceived an amazing idea. I decided to make myself a comm badge necklace peice! (you see, i am a silver smith.) So anyway, i made the first part of the badge out of silver, and the second is gonna be made out of brass (as soon as i get mah hands on some, that is). I will post a pic of it when i am done!

La titnahad

Here is one of mah fav. arabic songs of all time...La Titnahad

XD Kathim Al Saher does the song....he is SO hot XD

Entry one

Mood: hopelessly romantic

hehe...i went to a new years party last night, it was great :)

Here is a pic of one of mah fav. music artists of all time...mick jagger...

Poem 1

I look at you and I am unafraid, but I hear everyone else screaming. It deafens me, but opens my ears. I feel alive. I feel dead. I feel like everything and nothing, all wrapped into a bundle of colors and darkness. I breathe no air but still I live, but I also die. Am I alive or dead? It is for fools to tell.

Hi!

I finally have a blog...what can i say!?! I love blogging? yesh, yesh i do, very much so!